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Astrolabe,

I think I'm broken.

The Masters increased my salary again. I think they feel afraid because more Masters have left the Knights recently. So I have some money for our furniture.

But please do not buy too much. I want to buy a bigger apartment for Jia. More space would make her and Galenos happier. Also, I think I may hire a tutor to live with her and teach her. She does not want to go to school with other blood elf children. But she met a man in Undercity named Pietro Caro, and she says he is very kind and learned and is unhappy in Undercity. We talked, and we think he can teach her languages, history, and other things.

I am very happy that Jia now is not so angry at me.
But I'm broken

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Current Mood: depressed

What, then, is there left for the Light to be?

There are certain skeptics who argue that we should think of the Holy power that emanates from the Light as a mere school of magic, no different from Frost or Fire. Although such a comparison is immediately offensive to a religious man, it is perhaps not as wrongheaded as it first seems.

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Current Mood: full of affect

Astro's mad at me and I don't know why!

Astrolabe 17 ← Seol 27 → Seol 28

Current Mood: confused

It is a convention of language to refer to the Light as loving, punishing, forgiving, or scorning, but evidence seems to suggest -- and theologians have already argued -- that such expressions are creatively anthropomorphic. It is a popular opinion within the Church that the Light ~~is above~~ does not have opinions or emotions such as those of gods or (troll deity thingies). Instead, theologians prefer to characterize the Light as an opinion or emotion. This theory tends to take three forms using three different senses of the word "love." First, the Light may be an opinion, the love of good thoughts and actions. Second, the Light may be a universal, brotherly love among beings. Third, the Light may be a universal, motherly love towards beings.

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Current Mood: working

I am trying really hard.

I am really trying very hard. Even doing very painful and unpleasant things. I want you to be grateful to me. Or at least believe that I am trying hard, I am trying really hard to understand and to make it a little better. I am not just acting according to dogma and whim, I am not a [scribble] I am really, really, really trying.

If I can carry disgusting rotten Please believe in me.

Astrolabe,

It would be nice to have a small wedding. Let us plan. But I want to finish the writing first.

Astrolabe 16 ← Seol 25 → Seol 26

Current Mood: discouraged

Astrolabe,

~~Master Arimadios~~ This and that Blood Knight is really ~~evi~~ immoral. He tried to make someone kiss someone with a mind-control hat. I am so angry he could do that kind of thing now still. Someone can do that kind of thing and say he is a paladin? My stomach feels sick.

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Current Mood: irritated

~~Astrolabe,~~

Astrolabe,

Is this right? Am I the right husband for you? Am I capable of becoming the other half of your heart? Will I be able to make you actually happy -- can I produce "pleasure" in you? Or will I only be able to provide you some fleeting satisfaction when you soothe my pains, paltry pleasures that cost your exhaustion? If I am ill for the rest of my life, will you nurse me, virtuously, until my sadness infects you, too?

Are you really willing to waste your life on someone who is so slow-witted and slow-smiling? Do you really like me, trust me that much?

I really like you and I trust you, and I'm really afraid

I need to work harder.

Seol 22 ← Seol 23 → Astrolabe 14

Current Mood: worried

Today I kissed Astro and it was nice.

Astrolabe 13 ← Seol 22 → Seol 23

Current Mood: good

Astrolabe,

Please do not feel sad. I do not belong either.

However, if she loves this incompetent man, I do not wish to change

Seol 20 ← Seol 21 → Astrolabe 13

Current Mood: discouraged

Astrolabe,

The Horde has many very strange people.

But I asked a shaman about how to make sick spirits into well spirits. She said shaman can do it, but it is not common. A helpful ancestor usually dies and becomes an ancestor right away. And when someone makes a sick spirit peaceful, it usually disappears. So there is no common medicine she knows to make sick into well. I think this means it will be even more hard to find a very rare medicine to make sick naaru well.

We will search when you are with me again. I imagine you now are a stronger and wiser paladin than I. For you it will not be so hard.

~~I forgot what else I was writing tonight.~~

My shaman friend, Shuuken, named me "Seol, the Doubter." She means that it is good ~~but I am very afraid of what will happen when we publish~~

Seol 19 ← Seol 20 → Seol 21

Current Mood: anxious

Astrolabe,

Please stay in one damned place so I can find you!

And so I can bring you to our home. Our small house in the Lower City is almost finished. We and Abelar and Helaah will have our own beds and a kitchen for us. We will have four walls and wardrobes and furniture. And I have bought bowls and pans so we can cook for us and the refugees right away.

And I have bought chocolate for you. Astrolabe,

Astrolabe, come and write with me. Tell me what you are thinking.

Abelar 3 ← Seol 19 → Seol 20

Current Mood: overjoyed

The Common word good has many ambiguities. For instance, when one says the Light is good, he usually means that the Light has absolute, positive ethic value. However, if one says chocolate is good, he usually means that it brings comfort and pleasure.

We who follow the faith of the Light are ~~indoctr~~ taught that the Light is absolute ethic good. This belief dictates that those who utilize the Light must be good and that those who are destroyed by it must be evil. This seems a sufficient theory for ~~humans~~ those who live in cities under the Light, protected by paladins who shield them from the undead and lose their powers if they stray from goodness.

But at times, this theory seems to ~~be inconsistent~~ fall short of a wholly satisfying explanation regarding some phenomena of the ~~larger~~ world.

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Current Mood: worried

I made a promise to Jelleneth. No more than three crystals a day.

Seol 16 ← Seol 17 → Astrolabe 11

Current Mood: high

Piled on a desk in an Aldor library: old notebooks full of scribbles, finely rendered landscapes, chaotic frenzies of stick figures; many copies of the same schoolhouse workbooks, painfully simple ones, with angry black marks or looping scribbles filling the answer blanks. A sketchbook, a real luxury item with bright white paper, a purple and gold Aldor symbol on the front, and not one drawing inside; a sewing kit, a set of blade-pens, a box of pigments; tiny bags of dried herbs that still smelled nice. And an envelope, stuffed fat with half-finished paper cuttings, figures carefully glued together, loose circles and triangles and squares.

At the front, on top of a small journal open to a page of neat Thalassian, a collection of notes scrawled in messy Common on bits of scrap paper, some slightly oil-stained as if they had been procured from a fishmonger. Collections of words: "feel" ... "things" ... "to be" ... "to grow" ... grouped by circles or linked by arrows, sometimes accompanied by small illustrative diagrams.

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Current Mood: miserable

~~The Light~~

~~Astrolabe told me that~~ ~~I think~~

One of the first things a druid will tell a curious blood elf is that the force called "nature" that they revere and beseech does not always appear to act towards good. To one brought up inside sheltering city walls, wild forces can seem cruel and terrifying. Thus the wolf becomes vile and rapacious in myth, as the fox becomes nefarious and insincere.

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Current Mood: trying

T. tried to kill me today. I think she mistook me for some sort of apparition; I am not sure. But surely she must not care much for me if she still refuses to rest after she nearly slew me during sleep-induced hallucinations.

This upsets me. And it also makes me afraid. I need to hurry and finish writing. But even though I can usually control my tears quite well now, whenever I start to

Seol 13 ← Seol 14 → Astrolabe 10

Current Mood: grieving

On a fresh page.

Today T. and I argued. She asked me to stop worrying about her, to forget about her because she does not want anyone to grieve for her. To leave her because those around her suffer when they try to protect her. She felt she owed her life to too many people as it was. (She became quite angry during this and hit me, and I fell into the fountain and hit my head. But there was no lasting damage done. I think.)

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Current Mood: ashamed

The Hierological Theories of Astrolabe of Tuurem.

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Astrolabe 9 ← Seol 12 → Seol 13

Current Mood: numb

Astrolabe,

Plum flowers are falling on Bloodmyst Isle. If you are able, please climb a tall hill so that you can see them.

I do not mind if you think that they are ugly. Or if you think the tree is poisoned, please cut it down. But I want you to see them so that I do not become crazy.

I love all your ideas.

Astrolabe 7 ← Seol 11 → Astrolabe 8

Current Mood: despairing

Why aren't you writing to me?

Seol 9 ← Seol 10 → Astrolabe 6

Current Mood: panicking

Seol Plumfall

turtle loves sporebat

→Seol 29: Broken

→Seol 28: The religious man's mistake

→Seol 27: Stupidhead

→Seol 26: It's not coming along

→Seol 25: Believe in me

→Seol 24: Not All Right

→Seol 23: and Pain

→Seol 22: Her Return

→Seol 21: But There Is Somewhere

→Seol 20: Spirit Medicine

→Seol 19: Your Husband

→Seol 18: The Heresy

→Seol 17: Delusions

→Seol/Astro 16: Remnants

→Seol 15: His First Effort

→Seol 14: First Phase

→Seol 13: Destroying Himself On Their Swords

→Seol 12: Cannot Do It

→Seol 11: Falling For You

→Seol 10: An Ill Sign

September 2011

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