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To whom it may concern:

I DO NOT HAVE A CRUSH ON THE CONFESSOR

AND I DEFINITELY DO NOT HAVE A CRUSH ON THE HIGHLORD.

what the fel "paladin-sexual"

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Current Mood: mad

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Current Mood: anxious

Lately I have been thinking about souls. I have also been thinking that I shouldn't be thinking about souls because I still have not finished thinking about the Light for the first draft of my essay. There is only one section left for me to write. Maybe that is why I do not want to write it. I am afraid -- actually, not afraid, more embarrassed, as I feel myself blushing even just writing this -- I am embarrassed to firmly state, "this is indeed what I believe the Light is," I guess because the firmness of my belief does not actually exist and really I am very ignorant and extremely confused.

But I ought to finish it so that I can begin to translate it. I am very worried about Astrolabe, I have never seen her have a sad mood that lasted this long. If we become busy writing and translating, maybe she will become enthusiastic and laugh with excitement again. I cannot give my body for her consumption to please her, but I can give my words for her critique and please her?

Then I will show it to Helaah. Abelar told me that he and Helaah used to write each other letters about the Light and ethics before their marriage. I would really like her to criticize and help me.

But I'm a little bit extremely terrified.

I guess I better get to work.

Seol 53 ← Seol 54 → Seol 55

Current Mood: intimidated

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Current Mood: happy

Future Astrolabe and Seol, so that we do not forget,

It went as we planned it to go. Mother did not come so that the Aldor would not suspect. Father was almost late, but it was okay at the end. I think our words and ritual satisfied him because he often cried. And it satisfied me. I feel happy, and also like some tears might come out.

We then ate the cake, which was good. It was like doughnut in the shape of a cake. And Tiddia ate the sausage, and she said she was happy. I am very happy about it. And you, Astrolabe, are very relieved because of the hard work we did to make it.

Master Arimadios came, which did not please me. He shamed our father and Tiddia with an expensive gift, and then he took Jelleneth away. But though his actions are bad his intentions are not unkind, I ~~hope~~ think. I hope he thinks more of the feelings of others before he becomes the husband of Jelleneth, though.

Abelar gave us an instruction manual and Tiddia gave us a gun, to shoot suitors of our children, and a rock, for your hooves, and some enlarging potions for you. Which was strange ~~because I thought I am the one who needs~~

And now we are supposed to cook but we are sleepy so maybe we will just Consecrate some meat and go to sleep.

Seol 31 ← Seol 32 → Astrolabe 21

Current Mood: loved

Seol,

I am sorry. Tiddia went, and where I do not know. I think I did it of cause of I talked with Zula Slag Fury all day, of I want to learn of to black smith, of to make armor for little ones of Shattered Sun and to make money for husband of I, ... and I did not talk to Tiddia and make she safe feelings.

I am sad, to be friendy with she is hard but I think you are correct, the self inside is not bad. Just normal, she interests, like any person. And to understand she is hard but for people to understand I is hard so I feel sad and I feel I ~~understand(?)~~ (have feelings of solidarity) to feel to stand in to be same. But I did not know how to say I understand so I did not say a thing and we were not friends.

Paladins are really bad, bad.

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Current Mood: hopeful

Astrolabe,

I think I'm broken.

The Masters increased my salary again. I think they feel afraid because more Masters have left the Knights recently. So I have some money for our furniture.

But please do not buy too much. I want to buy a bigger apartment for Jia. More space would make her and Galenos happier. Also, I think I may hire a tutor to live with her and teach her. She does not want to go to school with other blood elf children. But she met a man in Undercity named Pietro Caro, and she says he is very kind and learned and is unhappy in Undercity. We talked, and we think he can teach her languages, history, and other things.

I am very happy that Jia now is not so angry at me.
But I'm broken

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Current Mood: depressed

Seol does not desire me.

Astrolabe 18 ← Astrolabe 19 → Seol 29

Current Mood: crushed

Stupid failure face!

I asked him what my best feature is and he said my MIND!!!

He should go break his back and see if I care, stupid shit husband!

Also, don't forget to buy salt, Briarthorn, wool, Eternal Lifes, and oil.

Seol 26 ← Astrolabe 17 → Seol 27

Current Mood: pissed off

Astrolabe,

~~Master Arimadios~~ This and that Blood Knight is really ~~evi~~ immoral. He tried to make someone kiss someone with a mind-control hat. I am so angry he could do that kind of thing now still. Someone can do that kind of thing and say he is a paladin? My stomach feels sick.

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Current Mood: irritated

Because wranet often has these really interesting threads addressing themes, but I am too much of a coward to post my own character ramblings in public there, I think I am going to start a little recurring feature on this blog, a "daily ramble upon a theme," if you will. We'll start with one that comes from wranet, gender and sexuality.

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Seol Plumfall

turtle loves sporebat

→Seol 61: Love of the unattainable

→Seol 60: His problem

→Seol 54: Procrastination

→Seol 41: Experiment and study

→Seol 32: Husband's log

→Astrolabe 20: The best one can do

→Seol 29: Broken

→Astrolabe 19: Preliminary results

→Astrolabe 17: Huge Dummy

→Seol 24: Not All Right

((Character Ramble: Gender and Sexuality))

September 2011

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