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→Jiajia 4: Poor impression

Shattrath is incredibly dirty. I have no idea how Seol lives here. Or maybe I have an idea and it is that he likes to stand in the middle of this Lower City here with his golden armor and clean black hair and be a shining beacon of hope to all those poor ugly refugees.

After all, the best soldiers are in Northrend standing against Arthas so there is no one to outshine some scrawny two-copper Knight.

A draenei spat on Galenos when we passed the Aldor Rise.

I don't like this place.

Seol 56 ← Jiajia 4 → Astrolabe 28

Current Mood: puzzled

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→Seol 56: Baby's First Raid

Astrolabe,

I had such a strange dream last night, of a very large dog that would not stop eating bodies.

And I woke up today feeling so sore all over, everywhere...

Cosimo 4 ← Seol 56 → Jiajia 4

Current Mood: resigned

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→Cosimo 4: The source of strength

By the everloving Light, Jia.

So we meet up in the Blasted Lands, with all those killer hyenas and DEMONIC BOARS, and they're all dirty from traveling for days and the man's arm is even bleeding, and when Pietro and I come up to them crying and? When we say that Master Plumfall already asked some Shattered Sun soldiers to escort us to Shattrath? She got mad. It wasn't even "let's go home," what the fel.

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→Pietro 8: His ambition

We located Miss Jia, at the border between the Swamp and the Blasted Lands.

But L.

When Cosimo and I were traveling in the Swamp, we nearly ran into a party of travelers from the Alliance. You never know if they're the type to parlay or shoot first, so we concealed ourselves and waited for them to pass. But with my bad eyes and my ear I was not able to monitor their location, and the poor boy was very frightened and confused and not of much use, so I slipped into his mind a moment to use his eyes and ears.

And I suppose my power must have grown over the years somehow even though I did not often practice them in Undercity, for I was not only able to see what he saw and hear what he heard, but I heard what Cosimo heard through his left ear, through my left ear.

L.

Here it is. Here is the key, the tool, the organ remade.

L.

Within my grasp again.

Seol 55 ← Pietro 8 → Cosimo 4

Current Mood: irritated

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→Seol 55: What Seol is really thinking

[Appended, some hours later]

Oh Astrolabe, by the Light, the sermons of the Horde are very, very bad. I wish you or Mother were here to teach them what proper religious scholarship is.

I planned to finish on the story about the Light tonight but my brain hurts after this. I think I am ill with the Plague of Bad Theology.

Seol 54 ← Seol 55 → Pietro 8

Current Mood: intimidated

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→Seol 54: Procrastination

Lately I have been thinking about souls. I have also been thinking that I shouldn't be thinking about souls because I still have not finished thinking about the Light for the first draft of my essay. There is only one section left for me to write. Maybe that is why I do not want to write it. I am afraid -- actually, not afraid, more embarrassed, as I feel myself blushing even just writing this -- I am embarrassed to firmly state, "this is indeed what I believe the Light is," I guess because the firmness of my belief does not actually exist and really I am very ignorant and extremely confused.

But I ought to finish it so that I can begin to translate it. I am very worried about Astrolabe, I have never seen her have a sad mood that lasted this long. If we become busy writing and translating, maybe she will become enthusiastic and laugh with excitement again. I cannot give my body for her consumption to please her, but I can give my words for her critique and please her?

Then I will show it to Helaah. Abelar told me that he and Helaah used to write each other letters about the Light and ethics before their marriage. I would really like her to criticize and help me.

But I'm a little bit extremely terrified.

I guess I better get to work.

Seol 53 ← Seol 54 → Seol 55

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(( OOC tales: PvP Protadin ))

So today I decided to do the Southshore quests for Hallow's End on Seol. Apparently you can do this without flagging... ... ... except that I was wearing a shield with a spike on it, so whenever the guards hit me, I flagged. And did not realize this until after I finished both quests. /sob

... However.

The first time I accidentally flagged, two 80s whose names I sadly did not record, a male dwarf paladin and a female(?) night elf druid, followed me as I fled from town and attacked me. Feeling ashamed of my mistake, and also not really being a PvP type of person (even when they chose to attack me,) I sat there and waited for them to kill me (with a /greet, /welcome, and /twiddle.)

...

They didn't do a very good job of it.

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(( Crazed last-minute leveling ))

Speaking of Qualitas.

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Current Mood: worried

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→Seol 53: To receive support

Astrolabe,

Today I confessed to Tiddia and it was fine. After was the same as before. She treated me very kindly today and complimented me on many strange things. She at least thinks I look more like a man than a boy now, and I was flattered. And when I told her the story she was not angered or frightened, I think at least, and when I asked if she thought I was weak for still having a panic reaction to that, she still said I was perfect the way that I am.

Maybe she was just saying especially nice things to make me calm down, but I was so happy to hear those kind words. And she says she wants to join the Ebon Blade so that she can stand in Icecrown with the army that protects life in order to protect me and to protect the ones I love. I was so happy to hear that.

~~Will you forgive her, Astrolabe?~~ It is not fair of me to ask such a thing of Astrolabe when she is still so unhappy. I feel bad, I should have discouraged her from touring Draenor, I should have known that what she would see would upset her.

...

I am so happy that Tiddia wants to protect my Astrolabe. Because my Astrolabe is, to me, perfect the way she is.

Astrolabe 27 ← Seol 53 → Seol 54

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→Storybook Title

for mother

title
1: Credo
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4: On comparing one type of love with another

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(( She's supposed to be like nine in elf years ;_; ))

So I'm running out of RAF, and so I powered Jia and Galen and Pete and Cosimo up to 60.

And if you thought they had horrible outfits before... ... ... you have no idea.

( You are not prepared )

Current Mood: upset

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→Astrolabe 27: Tuurem

I saw the reason that Seol never did take me here, down there, upon the ground.

There aren't any gardens. There aren't any candles around the temple. There are still flames, though, big ones in the middle of the bones of the buildings. The Lost Ones lay down their bows and knives and smoke their fresh-caught roast: the fatty arm of a dark-skinned draenei.

There they are, eating my home.

I hate them.

Astrolabe 26 ← Astrolabe 27 → Seol 53

Current Mood: excited

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→Astrolabe 26: It started innocently enough

Dear Seol!

Common of I gets better and better if I write.

This year holiday of Azeroth Hallows End is at Draenor also. I think last year it was also there. But last year I was sad and I feared to leave Shattrath. So I did not go. But this year I do not fear, and I am also happy to get candies for I and for Seol. So I am to go!

So I got a grifon. I wanted a wivern friend, but I do not speak orc, and people suspect someone purple on a wivern. People do not suspect a purple person on a grifon. A problem was that dwarves do not sell grifons but give a gift of a grifon to big people of the Alliance. I am not of the Alliance, so I got a grifon from a goblin with a lot of money.

It was not money of you. It was money of black smith work of I. I am so happy of I.

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Current Mood: worried

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→Seol 52: The consumption of souls

Astrolabe,

~~I know you try to make a joke with the mask and the "now you will love me because I am a blood elf" but it's not~~ Various things happened today.

I was afraid to confess to Tiddia so I did not go home to the apartment in Silvermoon quickly. I went to M'uru's room instead because I wanted to feel that love so I would be a little braver. But I found Shuuken there. It was strange. She said she heard music that called her there. I wonder if Shuuken "hears" the spirits and the breath of the earth the way that I "feel" the Light.

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Current Mood: satisfied

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→Seol 51: Upon Quel'Danas

Astrolabe,

Today Tiddia and I went to Quel'Danas to fight the Sunfuries as we planned.

Before we left I showed her M'uru's room. Shuuken found us by accident in Silvermoon and so I showed her, too. And Jelleneth came to the room while looking for Master Arimadios. I tried to explain my feelings but I do not think Tiddia and Jelleneth liked them very much. Maybe it is because my ideas are very full of pain or because it is a sort of feeling of a selfish child. But Tiddia said that she understood and did not hate me for it. Even if she thinks I am twisted if she understands that is enough.

Shuuken understood well, I think. I often think that Shuuken understands me well. I think that this means I am much like a mad shaman and am not sure if I should be happy or worried about this.

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(( Link to self ))

Hey Isaac, Seol's profile is here.

Or, well, it will be once you KNUCKLE DOWN AND WRITE IT.

Current Mood: moody

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→Seol 50: The blood-stained birthing room

Astrolabe,

Today I met an engineer committing sacrilege in M'uru's room.

I did not throw him out or show my anger even though I probably outrank the one who let him down here. And I know it would be wrong of me to say that he is definitely immoral when I am happy to commit heresies and blasphemies.

But it is disrespectful. It is not kind to be careless and to track dirt on the bloodstains left by a mother who died giving birth. Even if the dead do not care about their dignity any more, their children do. It is unkind to their feelings.

But I held onto my tongue.

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Current Mood: grumpy

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→Seol 49: A page of preparatory notes

The man who steals food because he is dying of hunger.

The man who commits treason in order to save the monarch's life.

The man who holds no special rank, upon whom no dependents rely, who does no great work for the world, who kills an attacker bent on his life.

The madman who, blind with illusions, kills out of fear and horror.

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Current Mood: difficult to describe

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→Seol 48: His favorite place

Maybe I overdid it. In any case, after the last letter, I think things will get better. I will not give up.

But I am still feeling a bit cranky so I came down here to rest a little bit before I go back to the apartment. Because although I want to make her understand I do not want to hurt her by coming home with a tearful face or to say something selfish and upsetting because I wasn't thinking calmly. And I cannot go home to Astrolabe for this purpose because if I tell her about this incident I think she will just get angrier with Tiddia and probably get angry at me too.

And while I was lying down here and thinking about the letters I think I figured something out that I need to write down before I forget.

The reason that I cried so much when I met A'dal and the other naaru in Shattrath for the first time.

It was not because being near to the naaru makes me feel the pangs of the Light in my chest, the sorrow and suffering of the Light - that is the reason I still cry and the reason I feel so much pain near them.

But the reason that I cried so much the first time, which I did not understand very well at the moment, was, I think...

that the naaru saw my pain and looked at me and said, "we feel it, too."

and then Astrolabe came to me and felt it, too...

Seol 47 ← Seol 48 → Seol 49