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→Seol 48: His favorite place
Oct. 14th, 2009 04:35 amMaybe I overdid it. In any case, after the last letter, I think things will get better. I will not give up.
But I am still feeling a bit cranky so I came down here to rest a little bit before I go back to the apartment. Because although I want to make her understand I do not want to hurt her by coming home with a tearful face or to say something selfish and upsetting because I wasn't thinking calmly. And I cannot go home to Astrolabe for this purpose because if I tell her about this incident I think she will just get angrier with Tiddia and probably get angry at me too.
And while I was lying down here and thinking about the letters I think I figured something out that I need to write down before I forget.
The reason that I cried so much when I met A'dal and the other naaru in Shattrath for the first time.
It was not because being near to the naaru makes me feel the pangs of the Light in my chest, the sorrow and suffering of the Light - that is the reason I still cry and the reason I feel so much pain near them.
But the reason that I cried so much the first time, which I did not understand very well at the moment, was, I think...
that the naaru saw my pain and looked at me and said, "we feel it, too."
and then Astrolabe came to me and felt it, too...
But I am still feeling a bit cranky so I came down here to rest a little bit before I go back to the apartment. Because although I want to make her understand I do not want to hurt her by coming home with a tearful face or to say something selfish and upsetting because I wasn't thinking calmly. And I cannot go home to Astrolabe for this purpose because if I tell her about this incident I think she will just get angrier with Tiddia and probably get angry at me too.
And while I was lying down here and thinking about the letters I think I figured something out that I need to write down before I forget.
The reason that I cried so much when I met A'dal and the other naaru in Shattrath for the first time.
It was not because being near to the naaru makes me feel the pangs of the Light in my chest, the sorrow and suffering of the Light - that is the reason I still cry and the reason I feel so much pain near them.
But the reason that I cried so much the first time, which I did not understand very well at the moment, was, I think...
that the naaru saw my pain and looked at me and said, "we feel it, too."
and then Astrolabe came to me and felt it, too...