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seol_plumfall) wrote2009-10-18 05:10 am
seol_plumfall) wrote2009-10-18 05:10 am
Entry tags:
- ancestors,
- angst,
- astrolabe,
- astrolabe loves candy,
- astrolabe will be sooo fat,
- blood elves,
- campion,
- hallow's end,
- ic,
- jelleneth,
- journal,
- k'ure,
- m'uru,
- naaru,
- nagrand,
- orcs,
- oshu'gun,
- paladins,
- ronch,
- scarlet crusade,
- seol,
- seol hates campion,
- seol writing,
- seol's phobia,
- shaman,
- shuuken,
- souls,
- the incident at quel'danil,
- turtle loves sporebat
→Seol 52: The consumption of souls
Astrolabe,
I know you try to make a joke with the mask and the "now you will love me because I am a blood elf" but it's not Various things happened today.
I was afraid to confess to Tiddia so I did not go home to the apartment in Silvermoon quickly. I went to M'uru's room instead because I wanted to feel that love so I would be a little braver. But I found Shuuken there. It was strange. She said she heard music that called her there. I wonder if Shuuken "hears" the spirits and the breath of the earth the way that I "feel" the Light.
I talked to her about various things. I wondered if to Shuuken, M'uru is my ancestor, because the shape ofher him is on my heart. So I asked about the ancestor rituals of orcs, and Shuuken said that she did not know because she was born on Azeroth a long time after the orcs took fel magic into their bodies. She said later, orcs and blood elves are much alike because the green color stays forever upon us and we are hated for this, even though some did not choose or had no choice.
I am afraid because Shuuken and other young orcs never drank the fel blood but they were born with green skin. So the children that my generation conceives, will they have green eyes and be hated by the high elves and Alliance, forever? I cannot think about this
So I took Shuuken to Nagrand to see the path that the ancestors of the Mag'har walk. We started in Garadar. We met Jelleneth there. She said she was hiding from her crew (not her family, I said "family" later and I made her feel bad) because she felt uncertain after last night. I asked her to come, too, because I hoped that after I spoke to K'ure I would confess to her and to Shuuken.
We followed the spirits to Oshu'gun. I can see them because of the Auchenai Death-Priest training. Shuuken could not see them but she could hear them because she is a shaman. And then we went inside Oshu'gun and I showed Shuuken what the Shadow Council have done there.
She was very angry...
But K'ure spoke to her, and Shuuken wept with sadness for the naaru and the ancestors. She wished to fight beside me and the naaru so that all of them will not have to suffer so much. I am happy that Shuuken felt this instead of turning against the naaru and me.
And then she ran off to start to fight already, I think. So I did not get to confess to Shuuken. I confessed to Jelleneth, though, after she told me about her family a little bit and how her sister became Wretched. Because I also wanted to tell her, so that she would not believe she is the only one who does bad things when starved, and so that she would not feel so ashamed and lonely. I again promised to euthanize her if it comes to that, but it hurts to think about that.
I was okay. It was much easier than last night. I almost fainted once but other than that I just cried a little and was scared. And Jelleneth reassured me and forgave me and everything was all fine. So I felt good, but I am still afraid to tell Tiddia.
Tiddia is difficult.She said that the naaru are pure evil She does not like the naaru. She also accepts the words of that Scarlet Crusader with no powers of reasoning at all are true because "they are divine." I tried to show that that is stupid disgusting a little bit unsound in a gentle way, and reminded her that the Scarlet Crusade does not think elves are worthy to use the Light any more and maybe should be killed off Azeroth, and maybe she listened to me a little. Maybe she will not join with me completely but she did say that she does not think everyone would be happy under the Scourge, and so I am happy that she at least gives me a chance inside her mind to share our ideas.
In the end I was too scared to confess to her today. But she told me a confession-storywhich was disturbing but I still understand the feelings of that Tiddia so I would like to tell her so she knows I trust her too.
I should not fear that she will hold it against me or fear me.
But Tiddia is completely correct when she says that the naaru eat souls. This is not a small problem for us. I already know some possible answers but we must discuss this for a long time to make sure we are not being selfish.
Maybe, "people are not souls"?
Anyway please do not eat all the candy, it is for the orphans when they come to our house to trick or treat. You have two parents and a husband so get fat with our cake and leave their candy alone.
Remember to bake more cupcakes tonight Seol!
I was afraid to confess to Tiddia so I did not go home to the apartment in Silvermoon quickly. I went to M'uru's room instead because I wanted to feel that love so I would be a little braver. But I found Shuuken there. It was strange. She said she heard music that called her there. I wonder if Shuuken "hears" the spirits and the breath of the earth the way that I "feel" the Light.
I talked to her about various things. I wondered if to Shuuken, M'uru is my ancestor, because the shape of
So I took Shuuken to Nagrand to see the path that the ancestors of the Mag'har walk. We started in Garadar. We met Jelleneth there. She said she was hiding from her crew (not her family, I said "family" later and I made her feel bad) because she felt uncertain after last night. I asked her to come, too, because I hoped that after I spoke to K'ure I would confess to her and to Shuuken.
We followed the spirits to Oshu'gun. I can see them because of the Auchenai Death-Priest training. Shuuken could not see them but she could hear them because she is a shaman. And then we went inside Oshu'gun and I showed Shuuken what the Shadow Council have done there.
She was very angry...
But K'ure spoke to her, and Shuuken wept with sadness for the naaru and the ancestors. She wished to fight beside me and the naaru so that all of them will not have to suffer so much. I am happy that Shuuken felt this instead of turning against the naaru and me.
And then she ran off to start to fight already, I think. So I did not get to confess to Shuuken. I confessed to Jelleneth, though, after she told me about her family a little bit and how her sister became Wretched. Because I also wanted to tell her, so that she would not believe she is the only one who does bad things when starved, and so that she would not feel so ashamed and lonely. I again promised to euthanize her if it comes to that, but it hurts to think about that.
I was okay. It was much easier than last night. I almost fainted once but other than that I just cried a little and was scared. And Jelleneth reassured me and forgave me and everything was all fine. So I felt good, but I am still afraid to tell Tiddia.
Tiddia is difficult.
In the end I was too scared to confess to her today. But she told me a confession-story
I should not fear that she will hold it against me or fear me.
But Tiddia is completely correct when she says that the naaru eat souls. This is not a small problem for us. I already know some possible answers but we must discuss this for a long time to make sure we are not being selfish.
Maybe, "people are not souls"?
Anyway please do not eat all the candy, it is for the orphans when they come to our house to trick or treat. You have two parents and a husband so get fat with our cake and leave their candy alone.
Remember to bake more cupcakes tonight Seol!
Log 1 ← Seol 52 → Astrolabe 26