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seol_plumfall) wrote2009-10-11 02:22 am
seol_plumfall) wrote2009-10-11 02:22 am
Entry tags:
- aleyna,
- angst,
- astrolabe,
- bubblehearthship,
- campion,
- campironch,
- fierine,
- friendship,
- ic,
- journal,
- marton,
- natharai,
- peace,
- plagued cupcakes,
- ronch,
- savior complex,
- scarlet crusade,
- scourge,
- seol,
- seol feels sorry for himself,
- seol hates campion,
- seol hates paladins,
- seol is jealous,
- seol is needy,
- seol the doubter,
- seol writing,
- stormwind,
- stormwind hijinx,
- the heresy,
- the slaughtered lamb
→Seol 42: Courtship over souls
Astrolabe,
I feel as if I am always holding onto Tiddia just barely and then losing her again.
At the Pig, which Tiddia used to like, we met a strange and friendly draenei paladin-not-a-paladin, which pleased you a lot. You made something like hot chocolate for us and it was very tasty. But then there were scary drunk people and we left to go to the Slaughtered Lamb, which has a very morbid name.
That was the place that things began to get bad again. After you went home.
Tiddia fell in love with a Scarlet Crusader. I do not know why she will immediately completely love a strange paladin of the order that hurt her so much and tried to kill her who completely hates her and wants to kill her and does not have any argument for his belief at all but she never believes in my love and does not like me no matter how, how hard I try to help and protect her and increase her happiness and what kind of sadness and suffering I go through for her. Maybe I am just really very very very impossible to love. For people who are not Astrolabe.
And she tried to confess her lies and sins to him, and followed him around, and her smell and her strange courting already made some (mage?) man realize she was not a human. And then later she told everything to that Crusader and it was impossible to say anything to save us, and I believed I would have to make my body into Tiddia's shield and...
It would be difficult for me not to die.
But I did not die in the end because of a series of incidents about a woman who turned into a ghoul in the Lamb. I think, from the evidence, that what happened is this: a necromancer, Lady Calloun, turned a woman into a strange type of ghoul with a poisoned cupcake. The ghoul attacked people at the Lamb, and that Crusader killed her. And the Crusader and an armored gnome and I buried and purified it. And because I consecrated the ground of the burial, I lost my first disguise and had to use my day-two potion.
But because the necromancer did not react when the ghoul attacked, and we know she bakes, and the ghoul was indifferent or maybe even friendly to her, we were suspicious. Tiddia and I were able to help understand this, so they decided not to attack us.
But we were not able to prove anything. I am afraid that we only made the necromancer and her friends realize that we knew what they are doing, which will make them try to harm or stopus them. Because Tiddia and I cannot stay in Alliance lands forever. Although some of the people were not unkind to us. The night elf woman even hugged Tiddia, and I was very happy because I know Tiddia wishes for hugs and kind touches and I cannot give them to her much. I feel sorry that these kind people will be in trouble now.
But I am worried... because the necromancers, they said, wish to create a new world for themselves, all enslaved. And I know Tiddia has said that she would like a world of the Scourge, enslaved by the Lich King, because it would be at peace, she thinks. And I worry that Tiddia may think that a world enslaved by these people would be at peace, too, and want to help them.
I asked her directly because I was too afraid not to ask and she treated me cruelly. And so I am very afraid.
But maybe there is not anything I can do.
I went back to the Cathedral to read because this is my only draenei potion and I cannot waste it. I must read, I was so excited to read and I do not want to go back home longing and wishing I had read. But I cannot keep my eyes on the words. I am worried about Tiddia. I am worried about Coria, or Ronch. I am worried about the one who is my friend and I care about a lot
I do not want to be her enemy.
And I do not want her soul to be lost.
After two more bell tolls I will go back to Redridge.
I feel as if I am always holding onto Tiddia just barely and then losing her again.
At the Pig, which Tiddia used to like, we met a strange and friendly draenei paladin-not-a-paladin, which pleased you a lot. You made something like hot chocolate for us and it was very tasty. But then there were scary drunk people and we left to go to the Slaughtered Lamb, which has a very morbid name.
That was the place that things began to get bad again. After you went home.
Tiddia fell in love with a Scarlet Crusader. I do not know why she will immediately completely love a strange paladin of the order that hurt her so much and tried to kill her who completely hates her and wants to kill her and does not have any argument for his belief at all but she never believes in my love and does not like me no matter how, how hard I try to help and protect her and increase her happiness and what kind of sadness and suffering I go through for her. Maybe I am just really very very very impossible to love. For people who are not Astrolabe.
And she tried to confess her lies and sins to him, and followed him around, and her smell and her strange courting already made some (mage?) man realize she was not a human. And then later she told everything to that Crusader and it was impossible to say anything to save us, and I believed I would have to make my body into Tiddia's shield and...
It would be difficult for me not to die.
But I did not die in the end because of a series of incidents about a woman who turned into a ghoul in the Lamb. I think, from the evidence, that what happened is this: a necromancer, Lady Calloun, turned a woman into a strange type of ghoul with a poisoned cupcake. The ghoul attacked people at the Lamb, and that Crusader killed her. And the Crusader and an armored gnome and I buried and purified it. And because I consecrated the ground of the burial, I lost my first disguise and had to use my day-two potion.
But because the necromancer did not react when the ghoul attacked, and we know she bakes, and the ghoul was indifferent or maybe even friendly to her, we were suspicious. Tiddia and I were able to help understand this, so they decided not to attack us.
But we were not able to prove anything. I am afraid that we only made the necromancer and her friends realize that we knew what they are doing, which will make them try to harm or stop
But I am worried... because the necromancers, they said, wish to create a new world for themselves, all enslaved. And I know Tiddia has said that she would like a world of the Scourge, enslaved by the Lich King, because it would be at peace, she thinks. And I worry that Tiddia may think that a world enslaved by these people would be at peace, too, and want to help them.
I asked her directly because I was too afraid not to ask and she treated me cruelly. And so I am very afraid.
But maybe there is not anything I can do.
I went back to the Cathedral to read because this is my only draenei potion and I cannot waste it. I must read, I was so excited to read and I do not want to go back home longing and wishing I had read. But I cannot keep my eyes on the words. I am worried about Tiddia. I am worried about Coria, or Ronch. I am worried about the one who is my friend and I care about a lot
I do not want to be her enemy.
And I do not want her soul to be lost.
After two more bell tolls I will go back to Redridge.
Astrolabe 23 ← Seol 42 → Seol 43