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Lately I have been thinking about souls. I have also been thinking that I shouldn't be thinking about souls because I still have not finished thinking about the Light for the first draft of my essay. There is only one section left for me to write. Maybe that is why I do not want to write it. I am afraid -- actually, not afraid, more embarrassed, as I feel myself blushing even just writing this -- I am embarrassed to firmly state, "this is indeed what I believe the Light is," I guess because the firmness of my belief does not actually exist and really I am very ignorant and extremely confused.

But I ought to finish it so that I can begin to translate it. I am very worried about Astrolabe, I have never seen her have a sad mood that lasted this long. If we become busy writing and translating, maybe she will become enthusiastic and laugh with excitement again. I cannot give my body for her consumption to please her, but I can give my words for her critique and please her?

Then I will show it to Helaah. Abelar told me that he and Helaah used to write each other letters about the Light and ethics before their marriage. I would really like her to criticize and help me.

But I'm a little bit extremely terrified.

I guess I better get to work.




Seol 53 ← Seol 54 → Seol 55
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Astrolabe,

I feel as if I am always holding onto Tiddia just barely and then losing her again.

At the Pig, which Tiddia used to like, we met a strange and friendly draenei paladin-not-a-paladin, which pleased you a lot. You made something like hot chocolate for us and it was very tasty. But then there were scary drunk people and we left to go to the Slaughtered Lamb, which has a very morbid name.

That was the place that things began to get bad again. After you went home.

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Astrolabe,

The things that pass for theological discussion in the Horde are really pitiful. Some paladin thinks he is very intellectual to stand up and lecture us about how we should be "united" without any solutions for enmity of undead and holy users, etcetera. The conclusion is "do not fight your allies because it is bad" and everyone applauds this profound statement.

Yuck!

I would like to see the disputationes of my mother Chihra's generation revived. A sermon which forbids disagreement is a little bit sick. Fearfully, it closes up to ideas that might nourish it. And everyone must listen, even to a thing that, to his heart, is very wrong, with no chance to protect his truth.

Your people had disputations, too, I think? Being people of the intellectual and arcane way and the holy way, like high elves were. Do they still happen? Or maybe disagreement is sealed up in the Alliance like in the Horde because people are afraid.

I promise I will write the last section soon. But I am so sleepy tonight.




Pietro 4 ← Seol 33 → Seol 34
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Modified version of the script and a photoshoot that actually happened the day before the wedding. :3 Because my computer is not quite buff enough to effectively two-box with the graphics/resolution turned up really high.

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What, then, is there left for the Light to be?


There are certain skeptics who argue that we should think of the Holy power that emanates from the Light as a mere school of magic, no different from Frost or Fire. Although such a comparison is immediately offensive to a religious man, it is perhaps not as wrongheaded as it first seems.

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It is a convention of language to refer to the Light as loving, punishing, forgiving, or scorning, but evidence seems to suggest -- and theologians have already argued -- that such expressions are creatively anthropomorphic. It is a popular opinion within the Church that the Light is above does not have opinions or emotions such as those of gods or (troll deity thingies). Instead, theologians prefer to characterize the Light as an opinion or emotion. This theory tends to take three forms using three different senses of the word "love." First, the Light may be an opinion, the love of good thoughts and actions. Second, the Light may be a universal, brotherly love among beings. Third, the Light may be a universal, motherly love towards beings.

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Astrolabe,

The Horde has many very strange people.

But I asked a shaman about how to make sick spirits into well spirits. She said shaman can do it, but it is not common. A helpful ancestor usually dies and becomes an ancestor right away. And when someone makes a sick spirit peaceful, it usually disappears. So there is no common medicine she knows to make sick into well. I think this means it will be even more hard to find a very rare medicine to make sick naaru well.

We will search when you are with me again. I imagine you now are a stronger and wiser paladin than I. For you it will not be so hard.

I forgot what else I was writing tonight.

My shaman friend, Shuuken, named me "Seol, the Doubter." She means that it is good but I am very afraid of what will happen when we publish




Seol 19 ← Seol 20 → Seol 21
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The Common word good has many ambiguities. For instance, when one says the Light is good, he usually means that the Light has absolute, positive ethic value. However, if one says chocolate is good, he usually means that it brings comfort and pleasure.

We who follow the faith of the Light are indoctr taught that the Light is absolute ethic good. This belief dictates that those who utilize the Light must be good and that those who are destroyed by it must be evil. This seems a sufficient theory for humans those who live in cities under the Light, protected by paladins who shield them from the undead and lose their powers if they stray from goodness.

But at times, this theory seems to be inconsistent fall short of a wholly satisfying explanation regarding some phenomena of the larger world.

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Piled on a desk in an Aldor library: old notebooks full of scribbles, finely rendered landscapes, chaotic frenzies of stick figures; many copies of the same schoolhouse workbooks, painfully simple ones, with angry black marks or looping scribbles filling the answer blanks. A sketchbook, a real luxury item with bright white paper, a purple and gold Aldor symbol on the front, and not one drawing inside; a sewing kit, a set of blade-pens, a box of pigments; tiny bags of dried herbs that still smelled nice. And an envelope, stuffed fat with half-finished paper cuttings, figures carefully glued together, loose circles and triangles and squares.

At the front, on top of a small journal open to a page of neat Thalassian, a collection of notes scrawled in messy Common on bits of scrap paper, some slightly oil-stained as if they had been procured from a fishmonger. Collections of words: "feel" ... "things" ... "to be" ... "to grow" ... grouped by circles or linked by arrows, sometimes accompanied by small illustrative diagrams.

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The Light

Astrolabe told me that     I think



One of the first things a druid will tell a curious blood elf is that the force called "nature" that they revere and beseech does not always appear to act towards good. To one brought up inside sheltering city walls, wild forces can seem cruel and terrifying. Thus the wolf becomes vile and rapacious in myth, as the fox becomes nefarious and insincere.

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I hate them. I hate all of them.

They don't kill to punish, they punish to kill. They use "vindication" as an excuse to destroy anything. They use "purity" to beautify an empty world. They like to kill -- they grasp the Light to poison it with anger and make it sick and make it suffer -- not to protect someone, or to heal his sadness, or to make the world safe and gentle.

Not even to survive, like the blood elves who made M'uru sick and dead.

They kill the Light because they want the Light to be angry and hateful and sick. And they are proud.




Jiajia 1 ← Astrolabe 9 → Seol 12
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I hate you Your mind is like the minds of the Legion.

Your Hand is opposite the hand of the man'ari.

I will not kill them. The words will not come back. You cannot read at all because of the glare of the Light.

I will NEVER be a paladin




Seol 10 ← Astrolabe 6 → NPC Letter: Kuros
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Astrolabe,

I am reassigned from defense against Skettis to the pacification of the Auchenai. Now after Levixus and Maladaar are dead, they do not trouble the Sha'tar so much, but there are still necromancers inside the Crypts. The priests reanimate the dead ones, and they are determined. I think the fight will be long.

I think the death priest Ramdor began to say to me that the Auchenai go towards darkness because the naaru below is sick. I met this naaru whose name is D'ore, but I cried very much, so I do not remember very well. It is very sick and eating many souls, and it suffers very much. But it hopes to be well again soon, and I also feel hope with pain.

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Listen Astrolabe.

I talked to my friend the undead human. We talked about the Light and I found more words. I write them before I forget them.

The human and quel'dorei Churches talk about the Light that punishes, forgives, and loves. But we do not believe it feels things like a person feels. Our Light does not have an opinion. The Aldor say the Light is goodness and love. But we do not believe this because the feeling is not the same as love, and paladins and priests kill each other with the same Light hatefully.

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